What is this Feeling...

        Listen to this~ www.youtube.com/watch?v=NaT7Da… most of it is inspired by this song…

    What is this? This aching feeling inside of me…

    I don’t know what it is….

    It hurts when I see them….so…so happy together…

    I put on a fake smile when I see them… am.. am I lying?

    Am I truly happy or no….

    I laugh, I talk, I go on with my day like nothing is hurting…

    Nothing….nothing at all…

    I try to ignore the pain…this excruciating pain in my chest…

    But no matter I tried…. I can’t…

    I just can’t take the pain out from my system….

    But I’m happy for them…

    Mentally yes, physically yes, but feeling wise…

    I really don’t know…whenever I’m from a distance

    and see them together, hand in hand, smiles beaming…

    the pain accelerates and I don’t know how to stop it…

    But then I look away from the issue and get back in line…

    I look back but… I don’t see them there anymore…I catch up

    with my friends, the feed backs and I listen that they’ve both gone astray…

    but after I send my condolences to both sides…

    The pain still rages on…and there’s no way to stop it…

Originally written on: 6 July 2015